( any other time, he'd protest that he's pretty gross right now, but they're both covered in the horrors of the night, so that's not much of an excuse. not that he's looking for an excuse; he wants to hug dylan, but he feels like they'd both be good for a shower and some sleep and, maybe, a good crying session apiece. before any of that, though, ryan brings his arms around dylan's back and pulls him close, no doubt smearing him in viscera and other unmentionables that he'd rather not think about.
for a while, it's nice. ryan isn't much of a talker, so he's more than okay with a soft silence between them. the longer it stretches, however, the more ryan feels like he might crumble the weight of the warmth, and his own guilt. does he deserve to be hugging anyone, let alone dylan? after all he's done? )
I shot Chris... Mr. H. I didn't have a choice. I didn't want to. ( don't cry, don't cry. he can at least wait until he's alone to cry— ) I didn't know what else to do. ( his voice cracks with that last bit; so much for not crying. ) I'm sorry.
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( any other time, he'd protest that he's pretty gross right now, but they're both covered in the horrors of the night, so that's not much of an excuse. not that he's looking for an excuse; he wants to hug dylan, but he feels like they'd both be good for a shower and some sleep and, maybe, a good crying session apiece. before any of that, though, ryan brings his arms around dylan's back and pulls him close, no doubt smearing him in viscera and other unmentionables that he'd rather not think about.
for a while, it's nice. ryan isn't much of a talker, so he's more than okay with a soft silence between them. the longer it stretches, however, the more ryan feels like he might crumble the weight of the warmth, and his own guilt. does he deserve to be hugging anyone, let alone dylan? after all he's done? )
I shot Chris... Mr. H. I didn't have a choice. I didn't want to. ( don't cry, don't cry. he can at least wait until he's alone to cry— ) I didn't know what else to do. ( his voice cracks with that last bit; so much for not crying. ) I'm sorry.